The past few weeks I have been trying to pinpoint why I started the challenge. People ask me all the time and I kind of have an answer, but often times it is hard to put it into words. I usually say....
"I wanted to help people, I want people to feel good about themselves, and I want their lives to be more fulfilled."
Or something like that. Well today while I was listening to this one part of Hosanna I realized that the words are why I started the challenge. These few sentences are my heart, and the desire I have inside me to do this challenge. After I realized that, I sang that part of the song differently. I want God so badly to break me so that I can continue to live for Him and I want my life to have meaning. I want my life and my actions to do something for His kingdom, and I feel like The Challenge is doing that.
Here are the words. This is what I pray for my own life so that I can be the kind of leader for you Beauties that God wants me to be. I feel very strongly about this and I want to continue to grow as a person so what you see is always Godly. When you look to me for answers, I want you to have faith that God is behind this Beast. Because He is.
"Heal my heart and make it clean,
Open up my eyes to the things unseen.
Show me how to love like you....have loved me.
Break my heart for what breaks yours,
Everything I am for your Kingdoms cause,
As I walk from Earth into Eternity."
I want God to heal me from my hurts from the past so that I can be whole and available to help each of you.
I want God to open up my eyes to the things that I don't see. I want him to open my eyes to your needs, your weaknesses and your insecurities so that I can say the right things to help you grow as a person.
I want God to continue to show me how to love like He loves. I want that love to pour out of me.
I want God to break my heart for the things that break His heart. I don't want to be numb to those things. I want to feel, and to cry, and to have compassion for each of your situations.
And last I want Him to use me here on Earth and continue to use me each day until I go to Heaven.
That is the heart of The Challenge. That is my heart. And those words are why I started this challenge. I will pray these things daily so that I can be the best leader that I can be for you. I want this Beast to be backed up by the BIGGER BEAST!! And that is God.
LOVE that song! i love the Hillsong United version! That is the part of the song where I, too, turn it up all the way and sing at the top of my lungs.
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